I Didn't Choose The Teacher Life Because The Teacher Life Chose Me! I Think?

I Didn't Choose The Teacher Life Because The Teacher Life Chose Me! I Think?
I Didn't Choose The Teacher Life Because The Teacher Life Chose Me! I Think?
As soon as I entered college, I knew exactly what I wanted to be! I was pretty set on becoming a kindergarten teacher and up until graduation, I hadn't really talked about anything else. You see, I was born and raised in the country and most of the time we all grow up and want to become the typical things in life such as doctors, lawyers, mechanics, teachers and a plethora of other things without ever really factoring anything else in life. It wasn't until one day they gave us a little test that would help aid us in choosing our future career paths. If you're anything like me, then you take test pretty seriously so when I heard that I would be given something that would predict my future you can bet your last dollar that I freaked out a little bit. I was only in middle school so you KNOW things were naturally more dramatic then and so I did my best not to worry about this little test. Anyways, the next day I showed up to class with my No. 2 pencils nice and sharpened and was ready to embark upon what would be my life long fate! Ironically, for a test that was supposed to be easy and required no studying, I must say it was very hard and long! I can vividly remember that test asking me questions that didn't have anything to do with tea in China yet I kept on completing the answers because I really wanted to see what my results would be. I know I am not the most patient person in the world but it felt like that was the longest two weeks of my life. I remember talking to my friends about it and we were all interested to see how our results turned out. I don't know what I was expecting but I know I wasn't prepared for the results that I received the following week after taking that dreadful test.

As soon as my teacher handed me my envelope I couldn't wait to open it. They said that we should keep them concealed until our parents saw them but there was no way on earth I was going to wait for the next 7 hours to see what my scores were so I went on my lunch break and decided to see what they were. As I started to read them, the results were kind of confusing because I had to figure out how to decipher the graphs and charts but it wasn't long before I was able to say what the test said about my future. As I was reading through the results I was actually pretty shocked to see that it said I would perform better in anything dealing with the Liberal Arts. Now, I have always been a fan of the Arts but I never saw that being apart of my future. Like most kids, I had dreams of being a dancer, ice skater, and eventually circus queen but then you start school and start to realize some things. Anyways, the results actually baffled me because before then I had only been a praise dancer at my church and hadn't had any other real experiences with the Arts but I was very good in all school subjects except math and I just knew for sure my future interests would lie in between becoming a teacher or a dentist! However, I think the biggest flaw with the test is that it was more interest based instead of what you're ACTUALLY good at based. Now, of course, I didn't see this as an 8th grader but I definitely see all of the answers since entering adulthood. For a few years, I didn't take the test seriously but as soon as I entered college, I knew that my views on what I wanted to major in would change drastically.
I Didn't Choose The Teacher Life Because The Teacher Life Chose Me! I Think?
I was in my first semester of college back home in Louisiana and I was on the track to become a Kindergarten teacher. I was super excited about my major because I was passionate about education and it was something that had been considering for quite some time. It wasn't long before I found myself moving to Texas and distraught by all of the changes that were happening in my life. The transferring of credits and having to take compare credits from two different states is what brought on a new take on life. So here I am, at my new school in a new state and totally confused about what I wanted to do with my life. But that all changed when I enrolled in a Pilates class so that I can complete my P.E. credit for my current degree plan. While I was in the course, I heard a few girls in the class talking about how sore they were from ballet yesterday and how they were scared to go again today. It was then that I started to look around the room and notice that I wasn't in a regular Pilates class but that I was in a Pilates: Anatomy for Dancers class! I decided to turn around and ask the girls if they offered dance at this school to which she replied " yes, there's an entire program dedicated to dance here" and I couldn't have been more excited. After class ended, I found myself walking up to my professor and asking her if she knew anything about the dance program here to which she smiled and replied: " yes, you're talking to the perfect person and I'll tell you everything you need to know". I remember that day just like it was yesterday because I remember coming home and being super excited about everything I had just learned. It wasn't long before I walked into my first Balley class and I was horrified to learn that I was awful at it. Thankfully, the woman I had was the sweetest, most nurturing person I had ever met and helped me understand that I was new at this and that if I wanted it bad enough then I would become very successful at it. Little did she know, those words are what would propel me forward to receive my Associate Of Arts with an emphasis in Dance followed by a Bachelor Of Arts in Dance Studies. Who would have thought that a little test that I took in 8th grade would eventually tell how I would eventually navigate most of my 20's! I know I didn't!
I Didn't Choose The Teacher Life Because The Teacher Life Chose Me! I Think?
You better believe that as soon as I started to pursue my Bachelor degree is when I started to feel this burning itch to want to become a teacher again. I wanted to change my major but I was in too deep with my dancing so I decided to keep going and finish what I started. Many people ask me why I didn't just want to become a dance teacher and I always tell people that dance is my passion and I love to perform and choreograph more than I love to teach it. As a matter of fact, I love it so much I would rather do it in other areas of my life outside of the school system. I would love to teach in a studio or dance on a company but not to have it as my 9-5 job and I am more than Ok with that. However, some days I do go back and forth on if I want to teach dance or not but I think that's just life! It's hard to make decisions and sometimes I believe we wax and wane between situations because we don't really want to part ways with the things that we love the most. I often times find it hard to be passionate about so many things at once because I do believe it to be impossible to give my all to everything equally. When I was in my early 20's, I thought it was normal to be involved in 85 different things and to feel tired all of the time. Now, I disagree with that and want to find things that make me happy, bring stability into my life, and of course is stress-free. For me, that meant getting back to the root of who I was and figuring out a plan that would work best for my life.

I'll never forget, as soon as I was graduating my advisor told me that she was worried about me because I hadn't come into her office with a clear plan on what I was doing with my life post-grad. I told her that for the first time in forever I was unsure of my life plan when in actuality my interest was changing again and I needed some time to figure that all out. I am a control freak by nature and had always been throughout most of my college career so I think she understood where I was coming from and didn't press the issue further. The thing is, I did know what I wanted to do (somewhat) but I just needed time to figure it out. As a matter of fact, it was during a course that I took with the Dance Department that helped cement my love for teaching and propelled me to think about a new future for myself but that's another post for another day. Needless to say, no matter how many times I have changed my major, I have always known that it was my calling to become a teacher. Though I was never sure on the "type" of teacher I would become, I did know that it was what I wanted to do with my life. I think I always knew that this was something that I needed to accomplish which is why I knew I was making the right decision by applying to graduate school to finish my goals! I know that this will be a journey but it is one that I am glad to be taking! You guys, life is constantly ever changing and I finally learning to just ride the wave! Anyways, I am very nervous and excited about this next phase in my life but more than anything I am READY! Becoming a teacher may be one of my biggest accomplishments but it is something that I am prepared to do and be. I am a firm believer that this is my calling and I am finally going to answer it! 

Always Living and Forever Learning,
Sha'Carey Martin

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